i had the weirdest dreams this morning/last night. in one, i was so turned on by my crush that i went in to kiss him but then hesitated. later, he was in my house along with my coworkers and then he put his arm around me and we left together. that’s when i kissed him and it was super lackluster. then his voice started to annoy me. then i had a dream i was in bed with who i thought was him and we were touching each other. but then someone busts in and yells at us angrily for “fucking” even though we weren’t but it was headed that way. then i had another dream i was naked in public and just walking around in a college without getting arrested. so i’ve come to the conclusion that i’m horny but i’m holding myself back because i’m scared to deal with the emotions that will come afterwards. and it doesn’t help that i’ve felt so lonely since my roomie left.